Wednesday night at about 2am I was on my hands and knees in the hot water of the bathtub crying and praying for the abdominal pain to cease. Well, this morning it finally has! Thank God. I don't know how thousands of other cancer patients get through this horrible chemo.......actually, I do know, we just don't have a choice, we have to, to survive!
I greatly appreciate cancer survivors alot more now that I understand what they had to go through. I don't know what is worse the cancer or the chemo! I've read so many articles now that tell how the chemo is so hard on the body that many people die just from the damage the chemo drugs do on the heart and liver.
I read an awful story about a 12 year old boy who had leukemia, he was on chemotherapy for a long time, the cancer was finally destroyed by the chemo and he lived awhile until one day his heart gave out. His cause of death was damage to the myocardial sac of the heart, a result caused by the chemotherapy.
There has got to be another way to treat cancer successfully without these horrible chemicals. Anyone who has received chemo IV drugs knows what I'm talking about, it's bags and bags of awful chemicals that are pumped directly into your main blood arteries. The toxicity of these drugs is sickening, literally. For a week after I've received all these drugs, I can't stand the smell of my own urine, it burns my eyes, I'm peeing out all the chemicals and it's like a cross between bleach, ammonia & battery acid. It's horrible! My husband says he can even smell the chemical smell on my skin the first few days after the chemo injection. That's why if people are going to receive chemo for a long period of time, they have to have a port inserted otherwise it would destroy and eat up your veins. The nurses even tell us to watch and make sure the chemo doesn't leak out of the port during the transfusion because it can scar the skin! I don't know how it doesn't scar the inside of my body, or maybe it does?!
Well, at least I am grateful to have these 5 mostly painfree days before my next chemo on wednesday. I am keeping the Faith, I know it will be worth it in the end, I hope!
Thank you to everyone who has been sending cards and gifts, you don't know how much it means to me!
2 comments:
Hi Mallory, I'm glad you stopped by my blog. I don't mind at all if you link to it! :)
Chemo really stinks, but trust me, there *will* be a day when you feel good again. I know that when you're in the midst of it it's pretty hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but YOU WILL GET THERE! Keep your chin up :)
Mallory,
I am going through ABVD for NSHD stage IIA (11 of 12) and I understand the terrible abdominal pain. For the first 5 or 6 treatments I would take vicodin or even percocet daily for pain. Then I started to wean myself off of it and the pain has gotten much more tolerable. I found that all the extra meds were hurting more than they were helping.
-blessings,
dpaulo
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