Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Scan was clear!

The oncologists office called, the results of the PET scan showed no evidence of cancer!

Thank God! Happy Day! Happy Day! :)

Sunday, February 24, 2008

PET scan in the morning...

Yes, I am a nervous wreck! I just can't help it you know?
I go in at 7:30am to St. Mary's. I am glad it is St. Mary's this time. Since Mark was laid off at Toyota, we had to go on COBRA insurance and it only covered me at Deaconess. Deaconess is ok but they don't have a PET scan machine. They have to bring in a mobile unit and park in the parking lot and do it there. Not near as comfortable you know?
Anyway, just glad to be going back to St. Mary's. We love St. Mary's of course, that is who saved Mark's life after his auto accident, that is the hospital that wrote off over $200,000 in medical bills for us so we wouldn't have to file bankruptcy, it is the hospital that saved my life with my surgeries, chemo & radiation and it is the hospital that saved Wade when his heartbeat dropped after 34 hours of labor with him & they performed an emergency C-sectioned that saved his life & brought him back to health in the NICU for 3 days after birth when his blood sugar levels were so dangerously high. St. Mary's has saved all of our lives, isn't that something?
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I will be so worried until I find out the results of course, which probably won't be until Tuesday or Wednesday.
I meet with my oncologist, Dr. Browning next Monday to go over the results and have my bloodwork done.
I wonder if it will ever get easier. The worrying makes you crazy! It's like the fear of the cancer monster returning is always lurking over my shoulder. Every twinge, every ache, every pain, I think, is it the cancer? Is is growing, is it spreading? It is enough to make a person crazy. You just have to keep busy & keep your mind off of it. It was one of the best decisions I made when I took this clerk-treasurer job. Yes, it takes up way too many hours of my life, but on the other hand, it keeps my mind off of the bad stuff. You know?
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It has been 10 months now since Dr. Browning declared me in remission.

Dr. Browning said when we get past the 2 year mark, then we can exhale and relax a little. He said if the cancer is going to come back it usually always comes back within the first 24 months.
So let's hope all is well on this go around! :) Let's pray that it is, oh God PLEASE, let it be ok.
I am just now getting my hair back again, my jobs are going well, we are getting caught up on the medical bills and the boys are doing good in school.

Please God, let the scans show that I am cancer-free.