Chemo #5 tomorrow

Well, I am finding out that "Chemo Brain" is a real thing. I have noticed that I seem to have lost most my short term memory along with my hair, I experience confusion that comes and goes, have been on an emotional roller coaster most the time and just can't seem to think straight sometimes. It's strange, losing control of your body and mind... and scary. I just keep thinking 8 more to go. Seems like forever right now. I read stories of other people with Hodgkin's Disease who are going through the exact same things I am, it gives me a little relief to know I'm not alone and not crazy! They are also going through 'chemo brain', severe abdominal pain, nausea, chronic constipation, muscle aches, etc. (check out some of the story links I have in the sidebar) I just read on another blog how the neulasta shot I've been getting for my low white blood count has been known to cause spleens to rupture, most of which result in death. I don't know what's trying to kill me more....... the cancer or the drugs!
On a brighter note........My oldest son started kindergarten today, it was such a bittersweet moment, letting go of my little boy. He was so excited and all smiles, he loves going to school.













I don't know what I'd do without my boys. They are what keeps me going! I love them SO much.

Thank you to everyone who has been helping us and sending cards and gifts. Thank you to my dear friend Wendy and her church, St. Paul's United Church of Christ, for the generous Walmart Gift cards from the sunday schools, extremely generous check from His Body Builders Bible study group and to Parke Memorial Church for the case of Tide laundry soap, downy softner and groceries. We are very thankful!